It’s a question I ask myself a lot because I honestly don’t know what we would have done without our faith. We might have curled up into a little ball and never emerged. We would’ve believed the doctors when they told us Elijah might not breathe, that he might have cerebral palsy, that there would definitely be something wrong with him. I know that nothing is certain and that Elijah may still have some difficulties in his life. Honestly, we won’t really know until he grows up what the repercussions of his birth are. But with every day that passes, he proves the doctors wrong. To me, every day he proves that there is absolutely nothing wrong with him.
Elijah is certainly a faith builder all on his own. How many two and half month old kids have accomplished what he has? I feel so inspired by him to make something of myself, to live each day to the fullest, to be the best mother I can be. (Believe me, sometimes I already forget how blessed I really am and I have to remind myself).
The comforting thing has always been that eventually Elijah would be okay; if not in this life, then in the next one. God can make anyone whole and while that is of course what we would all want, sometimes God has a plan that we don’t completely understand. Our lives are just a blink in time to Him after all and sometimes it’s impossible for us to step back and look at the big picture. We can try to understand it, but at times it’s so hard to wrap our minds around the enormity of it all…that for God there is no beginning or end. He is and always has been. But even despite our insignificance in relation to the universe, God cares about each and every one of us and what a blessing that is!