Wednesday, September 23, 2009

The Hardest Thing

I'm sure some of you are wondering how Elijah's GI study went on Monday. Well...let's just say it wasn't fun. Elijah wouldn't drink the barium from a bottle, so the nurse had to syringe the liquid into his mouth while he stayed on his back. Elijah hates lying on his back. And he doesn't really like having things shoved in his mouth either (Uh, I wonder why). The doctor looked at Elijah's insides via an x-ray, but it was too difficult to get a good picture because Elijah was so upset. The poor little man was screaming his head off and it was so sad that I almost started to cry. I was pondering punching the doctor and nurse, grabbing Elijah and running out the door when I remembered this was all our fault that he was having this study done. Besides, the doc and nurse were really nice. So, I held back my fists and my tears and told Elijah it was all going to be okay. And it was.

The doctor was able to see some things via the x-ray, but it wasn't a complete study. From what the doctor did see, he didn't think there was anything structurally wrong. So, that'll have to be good enough. Little dude leaks…hopefully (eventually) the stuff that should be in his belly will stay there.

Hmmm, I hate torturing my child; it feels like the hardest thing when I can't save him. (Oh, and don't worry, I wouldn't hurt a fly. Well, a fly -maybe. A doctor or a nurse - no way).


Michelle said...

It is so painful to watch your child in agony without being about to save them from it! I am sorry it was so aweful for him!

By the way, I did think it was funny how you made a comment using your husband's blogger ID. I did that once too - and of course wrote something my husband never would have said! :)

Anonymous said...

I seldom write, but always read what you have to say. Even though my son's, Paul's, medical experiences were years ago now, when I read your comments it brings me right back to those days of hearthache and frustration. I feel your pain and frustration and shed tears - in honesty for you and Elijah AND for me for the tears I never shed way back when.

Just wanted to let you know that I keep you, Andy, and Elijah in my thoughts and prayers.
Bless you.

kate hopper said...

Lisa, what an important blog. I'm so glad you are writing about living in Elijahland, with all it's joys and incredible heartbreak. I look forward to reading more.

Thank you, as well, for coming to the Mother Words reading last night and for your sweet comments on my blog! I hope we'll meet in person someday!


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